Moving on

Pain and disappointment
Fueled by jealousy
They eat me up
Make me lose sleep
Make me wonder
Was any of it my fault?

Can I forgive?
Can I forget?
More than anything
I just wish 
Closure or not
To move on

I want to die my hair red
Get a tattoo
Have a night of reckless abandon

But I know
Even if I don’t do any of those things
Even if I spend my evenings alone
I will be fine