depression

Do you know how it feels to feel your happiness leaving,
Or a sorrow fill your soul?
Do you know what its like to have nothing to say,
Despite having said nothing at all?

Do you know how it feels to wake in the morning,
Dreading the day ahead,
Because although you've only just woke up,
You know you'd be better of dead.

Do you know how it feels to shout at your loved ones,
Knowing they’ve done nothing at all,
To see your family’s tear stained faces,
Because they hate to watch you fall.

Do you know how it feels to have no control,
Of the ever growing darkness?
Do you know how it feels for tears to fall,
Without any reason at all.

Sometimes I want to hide away,
Hopeful to escape the madness,
But no matter where I go,
The pain can always find me.

Although it seems the more I try,
The deeper down I fall,
I feel like if I don’t get out now,
I wont survive at all.

I want to be my same old self,
No darkness in my soul,
But it would seem this depression thing,
Just doesn't seem to want to go!

All my life its followed me,
And now its worse than ever,
I want to get the help I need,
But my depression tells me never.

So wont somebody come to me,
And tell me what I need?
A way for depression to let me be,
So my heart no longer bleeds.



© Robyn Munro 2017