To Disappear Completey

To Disappear Completely
I squeezed shut my eyelids
Within the wall of clinking glasses
And murmuring reverent voices
Of blackened figures;
I wished to disappear
From painful weeping far-off siblings
And hardened harsh pulsating airwaves
Cruel upon our chests;
But I remained alone
Surrounded by their rustling black suits
And smudges close to hanging black veils
Shielding bright ages;
I could not leave her then,
Despite the soulless breathless visions
And loss of screaming irate urges
To grasp at her hands;
I saw her at my side
Wrapped tightly in our velvet bed sheets
And she drew them around my frail arms,
Just like the old days.