Mommy

Mommy can't you hear me? 
I'm calling out your name.
Falling faster to my demise 
with every pound I gain.
Mommy I feel fat 
And ugly in every way
I look at myself with disgust
I hate how much I weigh
Mommy I am falling
I'm almost to the ground
Soon, I'll toss my cookies
When no one is around
Mommy when I am skinny,
Will you finally be proud?
Will you look at all the weight I've lost
And ask me why? or how?
Will you see my head in the toilet?
Or notice I don't eat?
And ask me what I did to myself,
As I stare at my feet?
Mommy I really need you
Before I cross the bridge
Before the monster gets to me,
Before I reach the end.


Mommy do you see the scars?
That decorate my skin.
See the knife, my hand is gripping
Wishing for an end.
Mommy I really needed you
At that point in my life
Why didn't you stop me?
Why didn't you take the knife?
Mommy look at my scars,
And see what I've become
The monster living in your house
Who hides from everyone. 


Mommy  don't you see my pain?
Don't you hear me cry?
Don't you hear me  falling apart
When I'm alone in my room at night?
Mommy I  am insecure
And inflict harm upon myself.
I really need you to realize this
Before  it's too late for you to help.