Unbound

maybe it's because I was seeking comfort
in some strangely perverted and convoluted way
longing for a sense of safety I believed was there
yet, have never known

if only...

why does this repeat
continual replays
once moved
twice burned
thirdly, turned away

it never changes
seeds know its bloom
I ask myself the reason
reasons lay bare
they bleed onto this page
and yet, I can't read

doors, there were too many to remember
unopened
and all I had to do was push a little to see
promises waiting
anticipating
maybe I was a bit too optimistic,
die hard romantic.
relying on another day
another year

I am here holding the keys
the keys to tomorrow
tomorrow never arrives
it's balmy out there,
though I'm freezing inside
petrified

there was a time and place
and maybe there were many

and I?
I ran
ran like the wind
back to this familiar place
lifetime addition
of bearing the burden
for ungrateful souls

it's wearing me down
and I'm tired,
tired of trying
of going around and around
life unbound...