Twists and Turns

it was somewhere during that first day of never gonna happen
when the blinders suddenly blew off,
now faced with the stark reality of what is
all she could do was laugh

blind-sided, she turned and looked back
deep into the recesses of 
what was left of her once functioning mind,
desperately seeking that place where life held out dreams
without strings 
daffodils and butterfly wings,
where smiles were found 
and now

gone without a trace 
blown to smithereens 

it was never supposed to end like this
fragmented conversations wrapped around  
caustic comments
snide remarks,
senseless accusations

manifesting out of nowhere
when you thought all was well,
and peace was your friend.

knocking you back two steps, when you were already down
and it was all you could do, to breathe

as you scraped  back to reality
grasping for anything to pull you away
from the nightmare that jumped out,
front and center

whatever happened to comfort and safety
warm nights around the fire,
toasting the future with glasses of red
and that future was ours to believe
nothing was impossible

until this...