Staggering Reality

standing here
after this generation,
tears flowing beyond my brokenness

unspeakable realizations
chocolate covered lies
sugar coated reasons
why she never really tried

and me, the fool who hoped to see
maybe a peek,
maybe a glimpse
of my lifelong dream
of the woman, who remains unnamed

truth is,
it was less like a dream
more like a scream fest,
as my heart bled
around her toxic mess

after all these years, 
after all this time

what a waste 
and a death stroke,
inside that young girl's mind