Dilemma

Standing at a crossroad
pondering my dilemma
-whether to
remain with
the known,
familiar
-those old comfort
zones
or-
to veer wildly
and risk it all...
Yes, I know
change
is intimidating
but also that it
liberate
and sometimes is necessary...
Young,
I threw
caution
to the wind
embraced
spontaneity
but
now,
leeriness
numbs me
with those silent
"what ifs..."
and I weigh
pros and cons
ruminate endlessly,
each day
seeking signs
-a message,
some form of guidance.
Afraid of making
the wrong choice
I leave things to
"destiny"
a roll of the dice,
I resign myself
to
patience and prayer.
But,
still I teeter
on a precipice,
perplexed
not knowing to-
relax 
or to run.