DYING FROM INSIDE

With bloodshot eyes and my soul torn to shreds, 
my heart in million pieces, and my hopes and dreams now dead. 
I used to care what happened, 
I used to love and cry
I used to feel emotions, but wishing they would die.  
Be careful what you wish for, someone someday said, 
but never did I realize, that my blood could be so red. 
I tried to erase the pictures, I tried to free my mind, 
but somewhere deep inside me, is where this new girl hides. 
I can sometimes feel her moving, I can feel that she wants out! 
I can hear her quiet whispers “You are mine, you know that now!”
“Stop fighting me on everything, accept who you will be, 
accept my gift of emotionlessness, and I shall set you free!”
I want to give her this body, its tarnished and covered in blood, 
but I want to keep my heart and mind, I want to keep them both intact. 
I know I have lost this battle, this strange new girl has won. 
She will have the power now, to make this body carry on!
Some months ago already, I knew the stakes were high…
But its only now I realize,
I’ve been dying from inside!!