Hallucinations

Every syllable you utter makes pen-prints indelible
Words signed forever: no eraser in my mind
Thoughts never label me, though you do - irreversible

Your unfeeling: my narcosis a lined and tough rind
That mean stare a diagnosis, another descending stair
Reach no solace inkind. Your jibes against me aligned

To wear myself as I would I cannot dare
Instead build walls, masks, coffins and contain the danger of pain
When bare words condemn me, I withdraw still aware

This sane Alcatraz, Hades, this my shelter will remain
Until I wrest my insanity from white pills white gloves white eyes
They will never explain my feelings, my crooked washing rain

Spies, all of them, "Memorize the size of the skies,"
They cracked my shell. "Rise," my voice cries, and dies



This is a tercet using common rhyme scheme ABA BCB CDC DED EE 
It tries to capture the confusion of a hallucination, and the frustration of medications that don't make a difference... the pain of not knowing what is real and what is not, and the small feeling you get when ridiculed