Our Mother Died Expecting
Beckoned by grim and desperate voices, We traveled through the dirt road, silently. We greet death profiteers and dried-eyed wailers as they usher us into the one-room shack where our mother died facing the door, expecting. And we have come from the city’s aspirational end To redeem the dust she left behind She, from that tribe of women who traded sweat to buy us access into didactic spaces that promised a portion in that section of the city where our desires lived. All she required was that we came back, in city-sleek machines to whisk her away in the full glare of sunken eyes and envious hearts awaiting their turn. She waited, expecting. We sent hope when money wasn't available to go She sent back prayers, boasting to anyone who cared to know About her sons who went after the rainbow And are soon to return with pots of gold. But in the city We rode storms. And rode them continually Leaving us too tired to reap the golden fruits Of opportunity they said the city grew We hustled to the drumbeats of our mother’s expectations Modern day messiahs, bearing the cross of an entire lineage On our university certified shoulders, charged with redemption The last time we spoke, over the phone, it was Christmas And all I had to my name Was a fistful of dreams and pockets bogus with shame And so I promised to come see her in the New Year A promise I remember now, standing here Eyes dry, heart soggy, scanning the 10 by 8 contraption That contains her scant remains I can barely breath, afraid to choke on the lingering expectations Of her poor, departed, longing spirit And so I stand in this house of death I who have come from the city with my dreams To redeem the only thing that’s left.
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