Cruelty Through Different Eyes

I have wondered how in all those years
trusting blindly without eyes to see
how could I have possibly known those certain words shared
only served to make fun of me?
each time I wasn't around

me, who was true to only you
who absorbed your fears when they were huge
protecting hearts and tender tears
to find out now, you dared to mock and mimic

how could you

it's obvious now, I must have been
in
nothing more than an altered state
where all is well, where the mind conceives
and believes

turning back, would I see you there
or would wisdom reflect the truth I dared not speak
ferocious fiend with a heavy hand,
miserable and extreme

inside this frame was happiness and smiles
excitement so high, I was so certain it was real
only to realize, it was all contrived
as
summer flared while autumn dared 
we tripped along the royal rise

it seems incomprehensible you would besmirch
those tender sprouts, tiny buds
shy, but ever willing...
my adulation was so strong
held so long inside these beating parts

at long last, we'd reached that nexus
and to think, I was so sure
brought back now, by this gut wrenching blow
you were nothing more than counterfeit
completely unauthentic

we shared laughter once in a distant land
where sassafrass sang and Elpis hummed
some other world
where up is down 
and black is white
wrong is right ...