This hurts me more than I show

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Aug 2004
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This hurts me more than I show,
Knowing that the woman I love I must let go.
We just grew differently, 
Apart.
And love that once was everything,
Was no longer enough.
I think I am to blame
I did not take you for all that you were
But for all that you could be…
In my eyes.
I am the fool
And in days to come I know this…
Us…
Will show its head and laughingly say
“You hang your head in pain,
but you created the pain,
you threw it away,
you destroyed it!”
But I have to
For we can not go on this way,
You in your world
And I in mine,
Different ships passing each other by.
Docking occasionally at the same port. 
Oh, go away you horrid tears
I am strong,
I’m always strong,
I must be strong…
Oh you fool, you are so weak!
I cry over the tears
That you will cry,
The pain that you will feel,
My ability to hurt you so deeply,
So cruelly.
I cry over the lost hope,
The acceptance that I 
Can’t always make beauty,
Even when given
The most beautiful clay to work with.
I cry because I can not give you all you want 
And deserve.
I cry because I love you and yet
Love is not enough.

						To TG