Loose Ends

it wasn't supposed to end like this
with so many hanging syllables around those questions
you know what I mean,
the ones with multiple answers
and we don't even have one
never believing  
only to find out it never was

so, where do we start or have we lost the beginning
trapped in a maze of unfettered steps,
right here at the starting gate
although it's been years now
and no one, but no one dares

and me
here I am, still waiting
for what, exactly
I wonder at times, 
if I have lost the key

stuck in this canundrum
a paradoxical dilemma,
trapped in a loop
that never returns ...