My Father’s Closet
I slide open the door, it squeals in resistance on its metal track. The new navy blue suit, the one he jokingly said he would be buried in, is not there. He is being buried in it within the hour, and I am searching for his eyeglasses. He doesn’t look like himself in the open casket without them. I haven’t been inside this closet for years. Death brings home the prodigal. There is the budget tweed jacket, part of his chosen uniform before he retired, and there yet is his cache of Hawaiian ties, circa 1930s, garish still, a tattoo artist’s inspiration. On a shelf there are family pictures and a box containing papers, including a note from me years ago, recalling from childhood how I awaited his return from work, ran to him as he opened the door, and buried myself in his heavy black winter coat, its cold exterior cloaking his warmth inside it. The coat outlived its use years ago, but this man, chary of showing emotion, has kept the note, just as his son, equally inhibited in emotional display, still has in his wallet his father’s grateful reply. Finally on the shelf are the glasses, and as I pick them up I notice they are tear stained. The heart attack that took him caused him to vomit, a likely cause of the tears. But he died alone, me 500 miles away, and I stop and wonder about the source of those final tears. It’s getting late, so I grab the glasses and close the closet door, which again gives a squeal of resistance.
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Jaybird
I am retired, having worked primarily as a librarian, but have done freelance proofreading, copy editing, and book reviewing. I wrote some poetry many years ago, but decided it was bad and stopped, since I had other things to do. For the last ten...
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