Amsterdam

There were canals and boats,
houses and fairy lights along the water.
Even the air had a different smell,
a strange yet awesome feel.
And here I sat in the midst of it all
drawing my two worlds together
Once, long ago - 
scared and silent
feeling trapped
feeling small ...
Now, still scared - 
still feeling small 
but not so silent ...
The voices of reason speaking louder
Demanding to be heard!
I sit in a strange city
with all the trappings of success,
slowly ceasing the need to question it
This is real,
This is my life,
It is just as it is!
I seek no trumpets
nor loud acclamations...
Simply the knowledge,
the belief and the wisdom ...
to gently walk with myself and my life
through each of my days