6 Sided Choice

Im tired of you liking my wounds. I want to try it alone (maybe) Your always on me, whether its to 'help' me or blame me. Yu put the blood on my hands so you could stay clean. You would bath me, protect me, love me. Then you blame me, hurt me, kill me (inside) One minute Im a flower, the next Im a tombstone. The color of your eyes change, your drowning in hidden emotions of the deep. Open window, closed gate. Lover, hitter. Your the same, but inside you change like a danylion. Alive, dead, alive. Jesus walks the Earth again. I love you. I hate you. I adore you. I dispise you. Constant confusion, ill will. Im out of breath. My spark is gone, my soul is worn out. Devil enters my thoughts, my feelings, my heart when I think about you. I dont know anymore. My life is a strobe light. A rave gone wrong, looking for stones. A way out of reality (in reality) Im looking for the gate in a storm, an avelanch, a disaster. A galixey of thoughts. Cut in the chains? Naw them off? Embrace it? Love it? Keep it? Im on my knees begging for help. There bleeding from my falls, my weakness, my love. North or South? I dont know. Throw the dice, loose my decision to chance.