A message to a guilty father

Touch me with your kind don't treat me so blind father.. I'm here, cant you see me? I miss your care..I love you I see you every day.. but your absent in my life I missed your hugs, your games, your smile and your laugh But you've changed ... Father.. who in this world will pick me up when I fall? who will wipe my tears? who will save me from my pains? isn't that you father? father I failed in my school sitting on my miserable chair thinking of you in every hour don't blame me if they expelled me.. I would say to them, I don't have a father.. I have a ghost a ghost living in my home father.. do you know what I feel right now? I feel I don't want to have a son.. I don't want to repeat your mistake.. I cant be a guilty father.