"A Million Different Words"

I sit here silent wanting to say A million different words I want to set what's inside free But my thoughts remain unheard My mind is a swirling mess of thoughts And I don't know what to say Or if I should say anything at all And be silent for another day My mind stuck in conclusions again Always wondering "what if...?" Wondering if what I say will be heard Or laughed at and dismissed The butterflies in my stomach all have knives And they all stab at my heart It seems like the feelings I hold inside Are tearing me completely apart My feelings are locked inside a vault That may never see the light of day I wish I could kill this shyness of mine And make this sadness go away Maybe one day I'll let my feelings out And break the silence with my words But for now I'm too afraid to speak So my thoughts remain unheard