A night to remember

a night filled with a passonite surprise, would have collapsed with the dark lie. that one untruth would have made me swerve, or at least i would have if im the person i know. a time so right balanced on wrong, the morning after weak or strong? a lonely girl or a miracle of the new day, filled with uncertainites unsure of the way, looked back on with a smirk or should it be an embarrashed blush, was i a new person or the same driven by lust. sickly satisfied or a broken heart, the end of the beginning but still no fresh start, desparation my moments weak, but no tears from me, over what should have been, maybe if i took the next road then i would have already got my gleam, the rules of ironic sees my one step forward, take me ten jumps back im sick of this line, my walk needs to change think ill leap of this track as i leave the land for the sky, a suitcase of memories that cant be made out, shoulda, coulda, woulda, the lonely ones cry but i guess i have to doubt, upon return to the cozy cold, i promise myself that its done, i slip up and grey cloud covers my hazy sun. i hope it shines down on the other side so it wasnt a waste, a deal with the devil, a sip of heaven, despair or faith.