Abusive Love

I loved you; you hurt me I trusted you; you hurt me I poured my life right into your heart; you lied Though you confessed, nothing is right That trust is gone, my heart's of spite The bliss is gone, the trust is gone, the love is low I clutch my chest, the crying starts, I feel the pump of my broken heart The pictures and letters, spread across the floor I stare, then hear you at the door I'm on my bed, my gentle head Throbbing with pain, I grab my blade It sinks into my soft, scarred skin The blood pours out, it falls and drips Into my hand, around my fingers, the tips I struggle to walk across the red-spotted floor I cry and you're still at the door I grab the bottle and pop the top The pills pour down into my palm One by one they fall and fall I dump them till I have them all I sip the water, the pills go down My vision shakes, I'm on the ground I stop the tears, I begin to sweat My face, neck, hands are wet My eyes close slowly, I begin to fade With one last breath, I strain to say "Hurt me all you want, make me this way, I love you, but I can't take this pain.. I'll take these last few seconds to say, I'll see you beyond the grave.."