addiction

lit my last cigarette smoke flows...up to the vent as i wait for the spoon to heat up some more ...i ponder... why am i sitting on the bathroom floor... and what happened to my yesterday and why has my addiction... ...taken everything away ...how did my life end up this way and why did you...go astray how do i convince you that this isn't me this is not the person whom i should be this is not the life... i was meant to lead so i lick the needle for a taste of what has lead my life... ...to waste and why to my friends did i become a disgrace and why didn't you help me... out of this place as my addiction scorches through my veins i know in a minute... i wont feel this pain i wont feel these feelings... i feel for you i wont remember what i... put you through i wont remember your favorite song and i wont remember... what i did wrong and i wont remember anything as this euphoria travels through my veins i hope i took enough to stop this pain enough to stop my heart... from calling your name... enough to end my life, my misery... enough so that you might see... that my addiction did... what it was supposed to do... to cure my addiction... i had for you...