Afraid

When things finally start to come together my mind takes over and I start to think. I wish I wouldn't make it so complicated, but I’ve been hurt so many times before that I don't know what to think. It's not that I’m afraid you’re going to cheat, it's not that I’m afraid you’re not looking at me. It's because you could leave me. It seems every time I let one foot off the ground it backfires on me. And with every kiss and with every touch I think are you here for me or just for a fuck. I want to show you I care but in the end I’m scared it shows weakness and I’ll be left alone. You seem like a good guy but if I let you in you might hurt me and I don't think I could go through that again. If you feel how you say you feel then maybe in time my heart will change but for right now I really am afraid.