An intricate problem

Toying with this for a couple of days and the subject for awhole lotlongernot sure if its good enough for here but if you have some feedbackI'd love to hear it. I think I’ve learned Life is pain and pain is life Less difficult when shared by two So I asked one lover Then later awoke with another Two turn to three and three turned to four Life seeming more disheartening whatever I try Could careful selection be what I require? Make tracks on my own insulated from harm Risk four turn to five and hurt more than did prior So I stand on the edge a teetering mess, Not knowing but wanting you here in my nest You offer me hope, but I’ve had you before Then proven more painful when closing the door To give without fear a intricate problem Pass on life’s chances because of last dances Love and beloved share splendour and sorrow So I’ll offer it up my heart on a platter Remember the moment if my dreams you do shatter Pray our wounds heal easily should our love wain And if you cut, cut me gently For I fear that dark place Where life is just painful and pain is just life