Reminiscence

I never dared to say it out loud 
I never let myself become upset 
I was determined not to think about 
Things in the past I only could regret 
And so instead I chose to keep on smiling 
I walked on ashes of old bridges burned 
I hid my pain behind the mask of trying 
To live my life appearing unconcerned 
I never dared to question if it's fair 
I hoped to God those memories would fade 
Of all those times when you were never there 
Of all those times I felt unloved, betrayed 
How can you be surprised that now you're lonely 
With nobody to turn to in this world; 
That I can't help instead of feeling sorry 
To feel that you just got what you deserved?

An unwritten letter