Are You for real

Your stories I've read, Your greatness yet to learn... Your countless miracles heard, Just for one I yearn. Is it only in moral that your being exists? You disinformation of great reward for those who persist? The universe Your adulation or mere amusement? Scrolls proclaim Your love, some say for us you died... In my state I can't endorse, excuse I reckon they lied. Some advice in prayer to you I turn,pateintly ride the tide. How can I prostrate with disgust so plain to hide? My gratitude gone,its place betrayal too strong to shake... One thing I'd ask for, You Supreme enough to give? I doubt that, tell me, why let me live? This unremitting toture won't make me believe, Anymore than what you robbed me if You are for real. Are You for real, prayers unanswered, explain the deceit?