Autophobia

Ever since my memory could implement I had been damned by the element of A chronic case of bleak self loathe As demonic whispers trail behind me Casting opinions derived from self fear To create fear as well as supreme hatred Of its creator, stimulating my cerebellum Driving my thoughts to shocking venues Teaching me to hate the very person that I am As softly I crooned in silence to myself 'I never wanted for this to happen.' 'I had never wished for hate To devour my integrity.' Yet it transformed my dreams in to nightmares Shadowing my innate ability to project myself It has thrusted me into a scenery of destruction Refusing to cease its latch on the core of my life And now my body has been swamped by an ocean Of despicable promises and gruesome macabre oaths My only request is to be free of this incarceration Of autophobia before I am driven to the edge of suicide