Awhile of apathy is a place

Awhile of apathy is a place I begin my cloudiness, a flake after a flake My heart tardily pulsing The ridiculous end of everything Watching God for the first time, As my mind Hovering under the moon heavy smile. The bee needle and a stilling eye, I am a dripping existence soon will volatilize, I am not here, but all the way far Not heaven nor hell, Not terrain nor empyrean. In no want, in no dream, in no vigilance. Uncaring as stones and the clouds As the rain only crevices gives them, and I Offering the deads my heart. I sink out of sight, My settle eyelids lauding numbness, My existence padding backward, The Sand between my feet's fingers crunching and I drop my corpse in the brine.