Beautiful Black Woman

Beautiful black woman she used to be. She would cry herself to sleep every night hoping that She would not awake the next morning. Because seeing the morning meant she had to see another Sleepless night enduring the pain, humiliated and shame. She would cry….. Hoping to be touched by an angel to cure the pain. Selfness and disdain was her mother. The friend of the insane. Only placed to make her life hell and she was the devil’s helper. For only she worked late hours of the night. High heels and a strapless tee shirt. Bringing home different men every night only to help her take off her skimpy skirt. So she cried! Cried with hurt. She would place her head on her pillow and allow Her tears to slowly roll down her cheeks. She had hoped she wouldn’t awake the next morning Because seeing the morning meant she had To see another tampered night. Loud screams and the smell of alcohol and cigarettes. Marijuana and staring eyes. Fingers sliding down her 13 year old thighs. Those hands of a stranger who touched her in weird places. So she cried! She asked dear god why me? She begged and pleaded. But one day she gave up and stated she would never face this world again unless she was sedated! Putting down the bottle she placed The needle to her veins. Beautiful black woman she once was Because the next day She woke up in pain and decided To end her life . She wanted to leave her life of hell and torture. Pain and misunderstanding. Struggles and brutality . Suicide came next. But at least she was home. Didn’t have to worry about cursing the morning Or crying herself to sleep. She didn’t have to worry about enduring the pain the devil’s worker contained. Beautiful black woman ? Indeed she once was ! Beautiful black woman she used to be. She would cry herself to sleep every night hoping that She would not awake the next morning. Because seeing the morning meant she had to see another Sleepless night enduring the pain, humiliated and shame. She would cry….. Hoping to be touched by an angel to cure the pain.