Cant let go of you

All through my life, I keep changing, But ive been walking and talking about you from the start.... Miles away, and miles apart, I see you everywhere , everyday... The moments they say that dont matter, are the ones that make me sadder.... Fade away without thaught, resurface with your net and im caught... Screams for joy are made but never heard, Attempts for healing have led me to "do not disturb"..... You've got walls up to protect yourself, seems so strange seeing you from the other side, I miss my baby , my sweet sweet baby and our rollercoaster ride.... But you locked me out of your world, and I used to have the spare-key to the backdoor that led to your heart, but not anymore.... Trying to make sense of whats new, Its like I'm waiting out over a skyline for a clear view, Change as i do, i cant let go of you....