Cavernous

-This is just a load of random thoughts all thrown together so probably sounds quite muddled- It feels like something’s missing Leaving this gaping hole inside Please tell me what to do Give me something to make me feel alive It’s like I’m under anesthetic To numb my soul To freeze my heart It’s worse than sadness I feel like a void I am a mirror, still and simple When you look my way, All you see is your reflection You don’t see me, I’m invisible to you Your eyes bounce off me, Like you never saw My tearstained face Begs for another glance Every time I look at you I see everything I want And how I want to be Something inside is stopping me How can I change something I don’t understand? I watch feigned people play their mind-games I pretend it isn’t happening I block it all out Eventually I break down And when I do it’s harrowing My scorched soul wants to part with me To leave my worthless body I see in black and white There’s no point in this life I want a new start I want a new beginning But I’ve waited so long, I can now accept It’s never going to happen Will you miss me when I’ve faded? Or will my existence elapse from your memory? One day you’ll say to yourself Isn’t something missing? Finally you’ll realize you needed me It will be too late then. I’ll already be gone…