claim to shame

WhenI wake sweating out my sins I know that my demons are ready to vent That's when I feel forsaken By the blood in my veins Idont have the know how to live I guess it's time for me to give The night to my demons and let them breed in my heart Here in the dark I hear those wretchedangels calling My memories are mauling Raping me Of my sanity I'm all to blame For my claim to shame To my disdain I still feel the same This pain i feel Makes it so unreal For me to heal My shame away My wristskiss this blade My decision has been made In return it kisses my life good night No more sleepless dreams Erupting in bouts of greed Stealing me of my mind Isit so close To this unholy ghost This poltergeist Born of my spite This change is real I've been set to kill Maim the demons of my past So that this blade mayput me to restat last