courting sorrow

Icry here in obedience to the painI feel in my soul although my heart is reluctant Ireally have lost all control SoI put my trust in the hands of a fiend of generosity Ilook to him awaiting his plans yearning to be made complete Imeld myself into his eyes they give way to the winds of joy cooling the flames of my pride although this facade of love is just a deploy Away to shield myself from the hurt by tip toeing around the wound although this aqueduct for my phobias is about to burst his gentle touch has sealed my doom Like having your heart break without the pain with no worries for tomorrow all of this solemn happinessI claim it feels like im courting sorrow And it allows these tears to wash away this somber crown Ihave to keep my head on straight Ican't look down Even though the lightning may strike and the thunder may pound Ihave to keep pressing forward Ican't look back now