DayDreamer

I thought that I would love you for the rest of my life. I thought that you would someday wake up and feel this too. I thought this was a given. I thought that “our love” was meant to be. I thought that we had a one-in-a-million love. like in my favorite books. I thought that those flirtatious play fights were symbolic of our real love. I thought that sometimes when you’d catch my eye across the room, you meant something more. I thought that when you texted me while I was sitting right next to you, you were thinking about being more. i was. I though that that summer was the one. you should’ve realized it too. I thought that that hug was going to make me suffocate and melt and scream and fly all at once. i think it did. I thought that you really wanted to be with me. I thought that that night in the closet was more than just playing around. I thought that those rides were making you jealous. i still believe it. I thought that by making myself distant, you’d chase more. I thought that you would want me if he did too. he did, you didn’t. I thought that you would notice if I was thinner. I thought that you’d think I was beautiful if I was like those girls you talked about. you didn’t. I thought that if I gave in, you would too. I thought that you’d wanted this as much as me. I thought that there was no love greater than this. I thought that things like this happen for a reason. just not the ones i was thinking. I thought that the only place to go was love. I think that it was heart-wrenching to get that text. no guts to call? I think that I put on a brave face, and never let anyone see the tears fall. except for her. I think that my true love is out there somewhere right now. I think that my dream of wide open skies and cowboys and summer rain will still come true. I think that he’s thinking of me right now, but he doesn’t know its me. just like i don’t know its him. I think that I am destined for this great love. I know that my life will be all that I want and more. without you in it.