Desperation

I kept looking at that direction without knowing for sure if she was looking at me I was afraid of the answer I was afraid of the true. I was ready to make a movement but how could I know if she wasn´t to do one too? mmm, perhaps she is not that clumsy perhaps she is more intelligent that me. So for a moment, just for a brief moment I try to stay calm, I breath deep altought my heart was beating so fast because I wanted this to ended. Then I couldn´t handed no more I yelled, yes I did yell, I scream until my lungs bleed and then I jumped at top of my chair "Damn you" I said, "Damn you". And she laugh, she laugh and run run from the sofa thru the kitchen that big white mouse which I couldn´t catch, I couldn´t kill.