Different in a different way

pessimistic Infant Throwing Grenades with no aim I'm a fish that's drowning Same struggle different day... Now it's been no work and all play While I've been a jerk and I'll say I sit and pray it dosent remain FOREVER AND ALWAYS The words being set are reminders at best That objects at rest tend to stay at rest What I do to you I won't let be misconstrued But this mood is true and it's me still loving you On the other hand what I continue to do to my self Isn't quick isn't violent but it's still bad for my health In the publics eye but still stealth On the inside I'll try to stay a bottled up model citizen outside begging to come in again choosing to sin and sin Selling my soul for A deadly bite and fins I like to play shark and I can't even swim