Drowning

Your inflicted torture, it still holds onto my hands, holding me so carefully, just enough to break me. And you bring me up just to tear me down, my heart broken, in misery, still unseen, drowning. Living these lies, over and over again till I’m nothing, For your eyes are unchanging, your smile is unfading from my memory. But I just don’t care, when I feel your hands through my hair, Feeling alive again I just want to feel something. Because I like to play in the fire, near these sickening desires, So you know you can hurt me, because they forgive the liars. And I know it’s wrong, lusting for someone after so long, But I can’t stay away from where the unspoken words can’t be heard, I want to lie down in the regret you have given me. When everything is good and bad at the same time I believe the inevitable lies, Knowing it’s better than living in succulent sorrow. Not caring about what happens tomorrow, I live in the past, What has unfolded isn’t pretty, but I want it to last.