effluence surrounds me

(part two thereof) effluence surrounds me confirming my suspicions I am drowning in a lake of shit.. influential be-ings participate in this charade they feed my egotistical mind with caresses dressed in vocab of false platitudes and then leave me to fucking stew in this quagmire of self-loathing I float amongst the shit particularly non-oblivious this non-awareness frightens me as I can see, hear and feel and my god its me!