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Excuse my angst- 
as I throw up in the toilet, 
smoke a cigarette- 
do all the things you told me, 
that I would soon regret. 
Excuse my angst- 
as I scream, 
with these bitter salty tears 
exclaiming oh so loudly 
how I've hated you all these years. 
Excuse my angst- 
As I walk in stoned 
to your dinner party, 
as you relate to all your friend's 
that it's just that I am arty 
Excuse my angst- 
when you see 
those rugged bloodshot eyes 
the melodramatic cuts 
running down my thighs. 
Excuse my angst- 
when I come up towards you 
sincerity in my face 
and ask if all these years 
I could just - erase. 
I will soon forget them, 
relish them - maybe? 
but only you'll remember 
that teenager in me.