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I curse god for my wasted potential. I curse god for my ineffectualness. I curse god for my lack of love. I curse god for my failures, For my fears For my hatred, For my hopelessness, For my Fathers early demise, I curse god FOR THE PAIN HE SUFFERED. I curse god for my father’s loneliness in his time of need, I curse god for my father’s alcoholism I curse god for my father’s poor health, I curse god for my father’s lies. I curse god FOR THE PAIN I SUFFERED. I scream and I curse, I blame God, Allah, Zeus, Santa I curse them all. I curse them all until I’m hoarse, Until my throat is raw. I need to blame, to blame everything. I need to curse. Fuck them and Fuck everyone.