EXPLODING HEART

How did this Get so far, you never wanted me? and now your here, and i can't stand being without you? when did it all change, this vaquois turn around? is it cause you saw me happy, thought you'd step back in and see what i had left to loose. Strange old feelings come crashing back, i know why i love you, but is that enough for me, this flim flam, soggy excuse for a relationship. i want it all, no second measures, no excuses. i lay here next to you, watching you sleep, contemplating the game you are playing with my heart shaped piece of coal? Take it, crush it, you've done it all before, and i'm still here, sure i could survive again? the endless torment of yes no, stay go, i fell for you then and i could do it again, and die with the grin of stupidity, a smile of dumb. all i ever seem to do is fall into you, loosing myself in your doubtful smile, finding you in my hopeful doubt.