Eyeful Of Heartaches

here's an eyeful of heart aches on paper a list of my mistakes and anger just waiting patiently to be read alleged perfectly with a felt tip pen but please read with caution breathe heavely often 'cause you might feel you're stuck inside a coffin so keep your eyes open and your neck from nodding i don't want you to fall asleep i want you to fall to rock bottom so you can feel like me when your eyes close that's the only time i know you can actually feel at ease i want you to gradually get stronger so bare with me for a few moments i can't stand to quickly otherwise i can't control it so i'll just lie here naked for a little while 'til i quit shaking or put on a smile and about the time you feel the strength hit your knees and run through your thighs another heart ache knocks you down and comes dripping out of your eyes they say one of the main reasons for not moving on and picking yourself up is that you're focused on the past but maybe it's just that a few moments isn't enough to walk away from everything you loved because even if you move fast it's still not hard to realize the time that has elapsed for example since that last paragraph i actually took the chance to sit up on the skin of my ass but don't think i'm so high and mighty i'm still here in the palm of my hands crying but as long as i believe in myself i'm gonna be here fighting but once my eyelids dry it's gonna be like a new awakening i'll find inside the new things that live and wont mistaken a nightmare for a dream so don't kill off happiness just yet and save yourself a scream go on and set your heart out on your sleeve and stamp it to the back of your eyelids so when you're asleep you can see that when your dreams get crushed your heart too can break and after all is said and done you'll be stronger after an eyeful of heartaches