Faded Nostalgia (revised)

The emptiness of delusional pasts, The gaping hole of existence, The destruction of the soul, I was once a happy man, But now, life has changed again, My heart is defeated nothingness, Any morality, that I once held true,has forgotten me. I am numb with regret, Sorrow. Anger. Pain. The uncontrollable events of living, Makes one welcome dying, To be a leaf, floating in the breeze. A missing piece of truth, The loss of unconditional affection, The intense ache of humanity, To know an incredible friend and father, Almost super-human, To lose their presence, To lose the presence of myself, To forget him. The faded memory of love. My worst fear. My greatest pain.