Fault

Fault I don’t even feel the tears anymore, Nobody sees them, They can’t be heard, My emotions can’t escape my mind. I have watched children grow, And people die But never have I wanted more, To escape. From the world and people, The hell they are and are to be. It’s my fault, It’s me. My words, my actions, my thoughts, It could never be how they were interpreted. Nope, It was my goal to hurt people, To get hurt. I sure as hell get off to it, You know the having no soul. Leads to having no pain, And if I can’t have it I must cause everyone else’s. It’s spinning around in there, Two words. Fuck you, Oh wait… we did that didn’t we, Hence the leading you on. I never said I am leaving next year, I am not the relationship you wanted did I? No I didn’t, Not every day. The words never escaped my lips in the right tone, To enter in your ears. So you know what I warned you I said, DON’T GET INVOLVED!! Relationships and me well we go back, Fate spites me, the relationships well never last and always, ALWAYS involve regret. I’ve decided I must hate people and the world, Because it’s my goal to hurt them. Ward yourself away, I’ve tried heroes, I’ve tried lovers. Children, Friends. Mentors, Enemies. And they all end up giving up or leaving. Cause you know… It’s all my fault. I hate the world, Willing to admit it. And I am not going to do a thing about... IT! May 07 Sheena Allen