Feb/1/10

Feelin as if I'd lost hope, contemplating if either life is or not a joke. Its been days since we've last spoke and this sensation I've been dealing with, is pretty close to being choked. I've been trying to stay positive, but its kinda hard when you dont even know the cause of all this and so I sit, dazed, amazed at the fact that im like this, its bullshit. I hate not being able to do anything, straight up, I hate waiting, especially when you know, what we have probably isn't even worth saving and I guess the fact that I've been legit from the start, giving you my all, even my heart, wasn't enoughbecause now your gone , you left me all alone, secluded, simply put, deleted out of your life, so you tell me, should I even bother putting up a fight...