Finding the 180

Finding the 180 A conception from darkness , a product of the 4th sin. I yearn for the thirsty match only to discover the flames within. Instead I push to gather bloody shattered glass From destruction not a part of my lonely shattered past. Only to mend a connection that summoned me amidst This world of cold-hearted trial and deep eternal abyss. Though I pondered how this lonely life would always be If the flow of the seasons were just synonymous to You and me And then cognition plots to rear all flavors of ugly truth That knocks Sun Goddess back into the same internal dispute I am her apple and God forbid you were his snake These brands of poison that time and circumstances must make Can turn a journey of 180 pivotal changes into 360 redundant mistakes. I was losing my passion while my reflection was winning The love only innocence can so meticulously create So now my 180 is to accept my undying fate Until my soul is no longer drenched with utter corporal hate To live unknowingly is to die ever so graciously Only to bask in the freedom that was robbed from the seed that is she. I am You and so that now I am me. I was blind yet now I finally see That amazing grace is something that was always destined to be In 180 years of 180 tears That would turn into 180 miles of 180 smiles. Yet life is still a dream And I simply cannot seem To find the enlightenment of day. Not even one single beam Sensei, again, I ask when that day will make due When 180 blessings guide the path I always knew. Can you hear the strain of a peasant girl’s plea Buried at the endless bottom of the Mediterranean Sea? Oh but once again, figuratively speaking, You can’t find a haystack’s needle if I’m the only one seeking. But dare to dub a body other than mine That can determine a woman’s virtue by the arch of her spine That is it, I am past this mellow girl’s parade 180 marks the miracle in which sorrow fades Boy, I swear by the power invested in me A love child’s light will shine too bright for the human eye to see And girl your judgment that you own all right to claim Just duly note that tomorrow and today are never the same. If you don’t understand it now, just understand this 180 is the target and this time I won’t miss.