Fixation

She told this demon within me to stay She told it my secrets She took its place This demon is a part of me This mess I call me is a catastrophe Mental health’s not an option when I’m not doing well I’m going through hell She was my slice of heaven But she betrayed me as well She kissed my heart for all its scars Embraced me with words not empty Feeling satisfied, she's the only thing that made me feel safe Silencing these thoughts in my head Then she made friends with my devil The things she made me do God, I do not repent my sins For they were for her, and I would do them again She's my addiction and I've inhaled her fumes Intoxicated, I long for her At this point I have nothing to lose Except my life But that might be taken by my devil soon