flawed eternity

endless despair is my life loath is today comfort is my knife tears are how I pray wary of the approaching years fighting off thoughts of suicide fighting off my fears don’t look, i’m trying to hide sharp breath, pains to inhale searching for some finality frozen expression, my face so pale searching for another reality will you be my solace? block out the world, I close my eyes, can I ever see past this? my life blocked by pain without disguise I’m busy pretending, that tomorrow is never. I think you forgot an ending when you created forever.