Flesh Canvas

cut glass bleeds rivers in my skin... a library of my past.. purple pale crimson ribbon, i lay before you unmasked... new wounds mingle with old scars you run your fingers over my body and tell me i am beautiful, trace lines of hurt i have felt, tell me they are beautiful. as you pick up the blade you kiss my lips your hands strangle my wrists your knee digs into my hip. bound both at my hands and feet, you are free... have your way with me... blood swells and runs down my side, warm, wet...let you inside.. i scream in pain but in vain... it becomes my pleasure you slash lines into my skin...your canvas. tears spill from my eyes and laughter surges from my throat. my hips rise up to meet the blade, my back arches in twisted pain and pleasure. your eyes are sparking as you smile down at me, reaching for the burning candle you drip hot wax on my thighs, sighs... craving the excitement i exude you try to cut it out of my flesh, my screams the sheet music to your personal orchestra you want to be alive, but can not feel it... the Nothingness so sensual. my naked body squirms in delight... you gouge a path from my ribcage to my hip line, my mind was racing, but clear, now the pictures start to fade,,, one by one they drift away as if a lost memory... i am falling away from me. i can feel my eyes glaze as you try to rouse me, fumbling with the knots you release me, calling my name... you kiss my cheek, your wet tears a distant sensation, you kiss me a scream my name, i kiss you back and close my eyes, i open them in a breath and pull away, looking into my own eyes i stand before me... we laugh, the two of me... we stand palm to palm, and you sink beneath my skin as if by osmosis.. i pick up the blade, and it glides so gently into words across my milky flesh. mesmerizing me with a clear exotic song, only I can comprehend... ********** This was written as the Ultimate Sin, confession, penance... and absolution... a secret affair with myself... Complete forgiveness and acceptance of all my demons, both old and new...