Frozen Heart

Alone in a mass of people I stare out of apathetic eyes, lying, dying fallen broken, Looking for hope I find only ruin's.. Hold me close to your frozen heart, and let me long for a beat that is non existent.. Your arms turn to ash around me.. Skeletal fingers clasp my neck, withering my emotion to naught... Veins beneath my skin curse the blood that is not mine alone.. Years of girls become a tormented woman.. You crawl inside me and wear me like a coat. Streach my skin to fit. Your voice screams lies in my head, taunting me with secrets only we can ever share. They do not understand the longing, that is there. Loathing! Forever connected never to touch... Your blood spills from my veins...i tear at the wounds inflicted on you, by me..on me by you. Parts buried inside me are dying, maybe their decaying forms will fertilize newness in me. But I long only for a numbness where I can forget to feel.